Aiks..this is suppose to be my entry for yesterday but oh well,what the heck!

Work on tuesday was rather relaxing cos i was really fast at my work (cant help it,dude! i just hate prolonged tasks..it just makes one so sick and tired of doing it) anyway, had a nice 1 hour chat with my boss who is also an officer of the Boys' Brigade company i'm in over chapatis and puree and fish curry! yumyum! As we were talking about her kids and BB, i came to know that a member of our company who kinda 'dropped out' was the daughter to a fren of my boss and during our recent BBQ, i invited her over as the first step of trying to rekindle friendship so that she doesnt feel all that left out in BB but much to my suprise, she didnt turn up tho she promised too..and what made me even more pissed was the sheer fact that she actually came for the bbq but got scared and just left! I totally understand what it means to feel inferior especially when one's new to a certain environment but hey, someone's actually making an attempt to approach you! I wished someone took the same initiative i did to come up and talk to me last time cos if they did, i wouldnt be all that lonely and "lost" in church! It takes 2 to clap and however cliche that may sound, it speaks of truth to a certain extend! I really wanna pull this bunch of people back to BB but i cant if they wont let me help them deal with the problems and uneasiness they feel in BB...sighz...but anyhows, i wont give up! it's just not me;) i'll just have to wait for more BB major functions to come up so that i can invite them again...and God, i pray for guidance and perseverance to stand strong in my quest! Amen! ;)

Now, about today..sis followed me to work and man, she was great company cos at least, i had someone to talk too! u see, we were both actually suppose to go christmas shopping at midvalley today after work and we had to rush there to meet Rick but when it was close to 6, my boss suddenly bombarded me with loads of work and well, i was really frustrated and worried that i might not make it on time cos Rick just hates it when people are not punctual so oh well, put aside the fuss and did my work real fast as usual and managed to reach on time after all..however, due to some complications, Rick didn't get our message that we were waiting for him at Pizza Hut so my sis and i just stood there like lost kids for nearly half an hr...finally, his phone was reachable and we somehow managed to meet up..but that's not the best part of it! Rick and my sis had made an agreement to get me my birthday gift together! a pair of shoes! yay! cos it's something i've always wanted...thank u so much to my sisters and Rick! Love u guys so much! Muaks! ;)

Thought Of The Day! Sometimes, we might have our disagreements & arguments with our loved ones but at the end of the day, LOVE conquers it all! If we could just put aside all the negatives and gather up on the positives, whatever relationships we're in would definitely blossom ;)

well, ally the sophist has to signed off now..i've got work tomorrow and i need my beauty sleep! Love you all! Nites.....zZzzZzz

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hey peeps!
sorry for the temporal hiatus..i've been out for this entire week and damn,it feels good! i wasnt out loitering at shopping malls of course! monday and friday was spent watching tv at a dear friend's house the entire day..that's the problem when your parents just refuse to get ASTRO..as kids, we find all sorts of way to get to the SOURCE ---> ASTRO! ;) Watched Shark Tale on monday too! its so funny! There's this one line said by Angie in the movie which i just love saying and Leni and Oscar is just adorable! Not to mention, i had a great company to watch the show with ;)

tuesday was drill practice and then we had the test on wednesday and thursday..well, for professional drillers like our officers and primer, the drill test was probably a breeze but for us, first timers, it was WAY TOUGH! but well, thankfully i passed! yay!!! had to belanja the officer some more..tsk tsk tsk...don get me wrong! it aint no bribary! i truly deserved the badge ;) just kiddin! hope i did not offend anyone there..

saturday was a pretty relaxing day as well..had some photo-shooting session earlier in the morning and then went over to another friend's house to watch "The Terminal" and "The Exorcist 2"..hmm, if anyone here needs recommendation, well, The Terminal's actually a pretty good movie tho' the storyline's a little draggy..whereas for The Exorcist, man.. to be honest, i was freaked out to the max...but then again, a friend of mine wasnt.. maybe i'm just easily frightened :p no recommendation for this one tho'.. if you're the type that likes horror, just go for it! In the evening, we headed to Wesley Methodist Church to watch a christmas presentation by 1st KL boys and girls..it was pretty good! enough said..they did a good job cos' i was inspired to do something as big scale as that for 2nd Subang Jaya.. i think it's about time we actually made ourselves known for something! Go BB2SJ!

Well,that's all for the week i guess..i'm starting work tomorrow..hope all goes well and i dont end up hating the job..working life is all about perseverance and tolerance truly, speaking from experience...well, till i blog again..ciao!

man,today's bus ride home was dreadful as the bus was terribly empty with 2 psychos in it..excluding me of course..i got in,they started talking to me in bm..damn freaky man cos that guy that talked to me suddenly got up and looked to where i sat and started to act as though he was talking but no voice came out..he had all that expression on his face and he was pointing at me!
i just couldnt take the insecurity i felt in that bus cos its dark and empty so i left and jumped on another bus which doesnt exactly drop by near my house and took a cab back from mines..aiyoh..damn cut-throat la the taxi drivers there at mines..just for such a short distance home,they wanna charge me RM6! i managed to bargain a bit and get a ride home for rm4..but still, terasala..being kinda broke now,somehow the value of money is just so high..
after getting home,managed to catch a bit of my fav tv show,phew! then started studying lor..as usual..sigh..im so tired now..blogging is just a way to keep me awake..to keep me SANE! hehe...oh well, gambate allly! pray for me ya, peeps! its my final paper tomorrow,biology and i want it to end victoriously ;) i still havent got a clue of what to do after my paper..got no transport home and no one to accompany me celebrate..sigh... how pathetic my life is..

so much uncertainties, so much pain...
having yet not feeling...
belonging yet empty...
insignificant, that's what i am..
summoned when needed..
only to be pushed aside when bothersome..
blessed but with empty promises..
broken because of u..

that's just really how i feel..if i do nothing,i'll never know anything and neither would my existence be known, no measure can tell how hurt i feel! how unimportant i feel!

i just wanna push it all aside, cos' i'm suppose to be happy..tomorrow's liberty day, the last i'll ever see of stpm..i'm glad to be out of school (finally!) and moving on..hopefully, i'll be able to get the grades i want tho' i know i didnt exactly do my best..life is just always so full of regrets and suprises..i wonder what's installed next for me...life has to go on no matter how devastating the situation is..no matter how lonely i feel, i've got to keep running the race..